Being a New Mommy

So being a new mommy, is like being new to school. You do not know anything, where anything is... and your completely lost, but completely excited at the same time. Having Chase here, just makes life all the more surreal. I am responsible for this little being... and it scares and excites the crap out of me. I didn't know that when you have a baby, you have to develop a type of attachment, it doesn't just come naturally, or at least it didn't for me. I think that having chase here, makes me feel very responsible. I'm learning as i go, and that's all i can do.

Once Zack comes home, it will feel whole, right now i feel like something is missing, and i know its him. I also know he feels the same way. Having my mom here to help is awesome, but there's still something about having the other person who helped make this little being there, all the more real.

Chase is such a blessing. He is SUCH a good baby! It took Zack and I over 2 years to conceive, and we have been severely blessed ever since. Chase is wonderful.

I don't know how to describe how i feel for him. I love him so much. Just watching him sleep makes me want to cry sometimes. To think that God decided to give me such a good baby, is beyond me.

Thanks to all of your thoughts and prayers, he is finally here with us, and what a blessing he is!