Today i am suppose to write about something negative that i am grateful for.
I would probably say that the negative thing that i am grateful for was my C-section.
My C-section was an extremely painful procedure. In germany you dont receive pain medication , or any type of comfort while you are recovering from such a procedure ( AWFUL). Due to my loss of blood during the procedure, i had to receive Iron shots ( again painful) for two weeks after Chase was born. Which resulted in a slow recovery.
I am grateful for this because it probably saved my sons life. When Chase was born it was discovered that his umbilical cord was about 8 inches long. which is VERY VERY short for an umbilical cord.
If it werent for my gut instinct, and the nurses advise, i wouldnt have had a c-section, and something awful may have happened. To think that I could have lost my chase, or something happend to me as a cause of trying to have him naturally with his umbilical cord that short, it makes me extremely grateful for that C-section!
My lil Miracle is the best thing in my life!
The happenings of my life and of the lives around me!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 4 of the Gratitude Challenge
Well today i am suppose to write about something negative in my life that i am grateful for.
I guess I would probably say that I am grateful for the C-section that i had to have with chase. That was an EXTREMELY painful operation, and i really dont want to ever have to do that again. I would not wish that pain on anybody ( this is mostly applying to women who have to have this done in Germany, since in Germany you dont get pain meds, and in the states its a completely different process).
However, that painful operation probably saved my sons life.
When Chase was born, it was discovered that his umbilical cord was around 8 inches long. VERY VERY SHORT! So if i would have tried to have him naturally, more than likely something would have gone terribly wrong, and there would have been extreme complications if not his or my death ( who knows what could have happened). Not to mention i had an extreme loss of blood, (which inevitably made me take things easier)
I am eternally grateful for the nurses advise, and my gut instinct to have the c-section after 3 hours of labor with no progress. If it werent for those factors, i might have tried to have him naturally.
SO, although the c-section caused me to be in extreme pain for a lot longer than i would have been, had i had him naturally, I am extremely grateful for the lil miracle that Is my Chase today!
I guess I would probably say that I am grateful for the C-section that i had to have with chase. That was an EXTREMELY painful operation, and i really dont want to ever have to do that again. I would not wish that pain on anybody ( this is mostly applying to women who have to have this done in Germany, since in Germany you dont get pain meds, and in the states its a completely different process).
However, that painful operation probably saved my sons life.
When Chase was born, it was discovered that his umbilical cord was around 8 inches long. VERY VERY SHORT! So if i would have tried to have him naturally, more than likely something would have gone terribly wrong, and there would have been extreme complications if not his or my death ( who knows what could have happened). Not to mention i had an extreme loss of blood, (which inevitably made me take things easier)
I am eternally grateful for the nurses advise, and my gut instinct to have the c-section after 3 hours of labor with no progress. If it werent for those factors, i might have tried to have him naturally.
SO, although the c-section caused me to be in extreme pain for a lot longer than i would have been, had i had him naturally, I am extremely grateful for the lil miracle that Is my Chase today!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Gratefullness
So for Day 3 of the Gratitude challenge I am suppose to write about something i am grateful for. Today, Im going to say that i am grateful for my friends. Without them, i would be a completely different person. 3 girls inparticular have changed my life. Brittany Freeman, Kelly Lord, and Ashley Stewart have made my life so much more enjoyable. Over the past 4 years Brittany and Kelly have been my best friends. We were suitemates in College, and are now seperated by an ocean. But that doesnt stop our friendship.
Ashley and I's friendship is a new one. When our husbands deployed we quickly became best friends and have done everything together since! Without my girls there for me for support, i wouldnt have made it in this deployment.
Being pregnant while Zack deployed and then having my baby here in Germany, was quite a challenge, without the help and support of my friends, the past 6 months would have went quite differently. So to my friends who have helped to support me in the past few months, thank you , I am so grateful for all your help!
Ashley and I's friendship is a new one. When our husbands deployed we quickly became best friends and have done everything together since! Without my girls there for me for support, i wouldnt have made it in this deployment.
Being pregnant while Zack deployed and then having my baby here in Germany, was quite a challenge, without the help and support of my friends, the past 6 months would have went quite differently. So to my friends who have helped to support me in the past few months, thank you , I am so grateful for all your help!
Friday, September 25, 2009
The Gratitude Challenge Day 1 & 2 (* www.gratitudechallenge.com *)
Day 1.. Why am i doing this..
Id like to see what all in life i am grateful for, and to harp on those for a while! Living in the negative, is not something i want to make a habbit out of.
Day 2... The ABC's of being grateful
Using the ABC's as a rubric, create a list of the things you are grateful for.
B-Brittany Freeman, Brittany is the Godmother of my son Chase. She is a one of a kind type of woman. She has an innocense about her that is so refreshing . In College we were suitemates, and in life we are the best of friends. Living in Germany is especially hard without my friends, but brittany is a friend that has kept in touch with me, even over the years, and the miles... ( we met in 2005). I love her so much and am so grateful that she is my friend.
C-Chase, My son Chase is by FAR the best gift i have ever been given. After trying unsucessfully for 2.5 years to get pregnant, God finally blessed Zack and I with Chase. He is the light of my life, and the reason i get up in the morning ( more than just because hes crying.. haha) I am eternally grateful to God for giving me such a precious gift.
E- Earrings, I know this is cheesy, but i really am grateful for earrings. To me they make an outfit, and let you express yourself by the type of earrings you wear. I mean think about it, If your wearing pearl studs, you obviously arent feeling like a rockstar, but more pretty, and if your wearing HUGE silver/gold hoops your feeling a little on the ethnic side, and if your wearing Bright pink leopard print star earrings you are probably feeling a little rockstar ish.. I love the way that i can express myself with earrings!
F- Facebook, For some strange and unapparent reason, i have switched my focus from Myspace, to facebook, and i am strangely grateful for the change. I like having a way to keep in touch with my friends, and family!
G- God, well duh! This one is kinda obvious. Without him, i would be nothing, i would not exist. My biggest gratitude would go to him. He is the reason for my being, and the reason i have everything that i do. I am eternally grateful for having such a wonderful loving father, friend, and God.
H-Home, I am grateful that i have always had a place to call home. Whether it was at home with my parents, at home with my roomates, or at home with my husband, and currently at home with my son. God has always provided me with a home, and i am grateful.
I- Internet... This alone has to be the best invention EVER, over the car i swear! Without internet, my life would be COMPLETELy different, and completely horrible. With internet i can keep in touch with my friends and family since i live in Germany, and i am able to see and talk with my husband everyday while he is at war in Iraq.
J- Jasmine... She is my niece, and as cute as a button and smart as a whip.. I love her to death!
K- Kelly, OMG, where do i begin. Kelly is one of my rocks. Especially for this deployment. The first night , which was absolutely life changing, she was there for me all night, while i cried, and typed my heart out. She has kept me upbeat this whole time, even while dealing with her own issues and deployment issues... I love her to death, and i dont think she will ever know what she means to me! I Love you Kel!
L- Love, WOW... who isnt grateful for this right? Without love, my life would be horrible. I love my family, my friends, and especially my husband and son. I dont think life would be worth living if it werent for love.
M- Mom, She has her days. But for the most part, i love her to death, and dont know what i would do without her. I love you mom!
N- Nights rest- I am really grateful for the nights when i get to just rest. When chase sleeps early, i enjoy that time just to sit on the couch and read and rest... its nice just to be able to sit with no distractions, and have " me time"
O- hmmm O....Oatmeal rasin cookies They are my favorite cookies like ever! Gimme an oatmeal raisin cookie and a glass of milk, and i am a happy girl
P- Prayer, I am so grateful that i can talk to God through prayer, and know that he is listenting and i have someone to talk to at all times.. 24/7
Q- Quirky husband... Haha, there are some things that just work your nerves .... and when they are gone, you miss them REALLY bad... Well the quirky things my husband did when he was home.... I mess extremely and am very grateful that i have those things to miss.. and to look forward to for when he comes home!
R- Reading.. I love love love love to read! It is a great distraction from the world, and always gets my mind off of whatever im currently thinking of! I love a good book!
S- Stewarts wife Ashley... haha... couldnt think of how else to get her in here. Ashley has been my best friend through this deployment. We have talked to eachother everyday since Day 1 of the deployment. I dont think i would have made it through this deployment without her.. Love you Ash!
Z- Zack.. :) My best friend, my soulmate, my husband, my lover, and all in all the best person i know! I would not be the same person that i am today, if i hadn't met Zack. He is my everything, and i Love him with all my heart.. Forever and Always..
Id like to see what all in life i am grateful for, and to harp on those for a while! Living in the negative, is not something i want to make a habbit out of.
Day 2... The ABC's of being grateful
Using the ABC's as a rubric, create a list of the things you are grateful for.
(* www.gratitudechallenge.com *)
A- Aunt Alicia, She has been by far my best friend/relative for as long as i can remember being in the United States. My very first memory is of her giving me a piggy back ride at the Airport. She sent me birthday cards when no one else in my family ( excluding parents) remembered it was my birthday.. .IN fact she sent 8 cards.. haha... I love her like i would love a sister, she is absolutely wonderful and i am extremely grateful for her!
B-Brittany Freeman, Brittany is the Godmother of my son Chase. She is a one of a kind type of woman. She has an innocense about her that is so refreshing . In College we were suitemates, and in life we are the best of friends. Living in Germany is especially hard without my friends, but brittany is a friend that has kept in touch with me, even over the years, and the miles... ( we met in 2005). I love her so much and am so grateful that she is my friend.
C-Chase, My son Chase is by FAR the best gift i have ever been given. After trying unsucessfully for 2.5 years to get pregnant, God finally blessed Zack and I with Chase. He is the light of my life, and the reason i get up in the morning ( more than just because hes crying.. haha) I am eternally grateful to God for giving me such a precious gift.D- Dog, Rusty is like, the best dog ever, he made me smile on days when i didnt have a reason to smile. He has days when i want to throw him in teh street and forget about him, but for hte most part, Zack and i were truly blessed with him. I am grateful for my dog rusty!
E- Earrings, I know this is cheesy, but i really am grateful for earrings. To me they make an outfit, and let you express yourself by the type of earrings you wear. I mean think about it, If your wearing pearl studs, you obviously arent feeling like a rockstar, but more pretty, and if your wearing HUGE silver/gold hoops your feeling a little on the ethnic side, and if your wearing Bright pink leopard print star earrings you are probably feeling a little rockstar ish.. I love the way that i can express myself with earrings!
F- Facebook, For some strange and unapparent reason, i have switched my focus from Myspace, to facebook, and i am strangely grateful for the change. I like having a way to keep in touch with my friends, and family!
G- God, well duh! This one is kinda obvious. Without him, i would be nothing, i would not exist. My biggest gratitude would go to him. He is the reason for my being, and the reason i have everything that i do. I am eternally grateful for having such a wonderful loving father, friend, and God.
H-Home, I am grateful that i have always had a place to call home. Whether it was at home with my parents, at home with my roomates, or at home with my husband, and currently at home with my son. God has always provided me with a home, and i am grateful.
I- Internet... This alone has to be the best invention EVER, over the car i swear! Without internet, my life would be COMPLETELy different, and completely horrible. With internet i can keep in touch with my friends and family since i live in Germany, and i am able to see and talk with my husband everyday while he is at war in Iraq.
J- Jasmine... She is my niece, and as cute as a button and smart as a whip.. I love her to death!
L- Love, WOW... who isnt grateful for this right? Without love, my life would be horrible. I love my family, my friends, and especially my husband and son. I dont think life would be worth living if it werent for love.
M- Mom, She has her days. But for the most part, i love her to death, and dont know what i would do without her. I love you mom!
N- Nights rest- I am really grateful for the nights when i get to just rest. When chase sleeps early, i enjoy that time just to sit on the couch and read and rest... its nice just to be able to sit with no distractions, and have " me time"
O- hmmm O....Oatmeal rasin cookies They are my favorite cookies like ever! Gimme an oatmeal raisin cookie and a glass of milk, and i am a happy girl
P- Prayer, I am so grateful that i can talk to God through prayer, and know that he is listenting and i have someone to talk to at all times.. 24/7
Q- Quirky husband... Haha, there are some things that just work your nerves .... and when they are gone, you miss them REALLY bad... Well the quirky things my husband did when he was home.... I mess extremely and am very grateful that i have those things to miss.. and to look forward to for when he comes home!
R- Reading.. I love love love love to read! It is a great distraction from the world, and always gets my mind off of whatever im currently thinking of! I love a good book!
S- Stewarts wife Ashley... haha... couldnt think of how else to get her in here. Ashley has been my best friend through this deployment. We have talked to eachother everyday since Day 1 of the deployment. I dont think i would have made it through this deployment without her.. Love you Ash!T-Television, I am thankful that someone created TV, i just wishi had it! haha
U- Umbrellas? Hey, who likes to get wet when its raining right? Just a thought...
V- I am drawing a blank......
W- Weddings, I am grateful for that one special day when you get to dress up, have a party, and see your soulmate standing at the end of that isle going " wow " i cant believe im getting married, and that its my best friend! LOVE weddings!!In em, see em, have em, throw em... they rock!
X- hmmmm? porn.. haha j/k dont know anything that starts with X...
Y- Young Harris College, I met some of my best friends here. And i can honeslty say it was one of the best years of my life!
Comming HOME!!
I am absolutely ECSTATIC about comming home to Georgia next week! I cannot begin to express how excited I am. For one thing, everyone will get to meet Chase, which in itself is HUGE! For the most part, he is the first Grandchild on one side, and the first GrandSON on the other! Britt will get to meet her Godson and Kel will meet her new nephew! haha! Another thing that is EXTREMELY exciting is that I will get to see ZACK on R&R at the end of October! yay! We will be taking a cruise for the first few days, and then when we get back, we are taking Chase to the mountains to stay in a cabin for the remainder of R&R( Since we cant take him on the cruise ( hes too young))... I am VERY much so looking forward to this time for Zack especially. So he can get to know his son a little bit before heading back to the sandbox. My dates that i am available are anytime between October 7-Jan 3... EXCEPT >.... October 10/11 ....October 21-Nov 7.... Nov 14/15.... Dec 2-9. .. Other than those dates im wide open... Email me if you want to get together, and let me know days, so i can mark them in my calendar! ( Im a busy woman! haha)
I am in need of some therapy shopping ( its been a long 6 months) haha! And i need to have folks buy me a drink ( i just turned 21!!)
I cant wait to see everyone!
I am in need of some therapy shopping ( its been a long 6 months) haha! And i need to have folks buy me a drink ( i just turned 21!!)
I cant wait to see everyone!
New Love
So when chase was born, the love i had for him was a scary new kind of love. One i didnt quite understand, or respect yet. Now that i have had him in my life for a while ( 11 wks this sunday) I have a whole new appreciation and understanding of this love. Chase is my whole world. Without him in it, Im not sure what life would be like right now. He is here night and day, to keep me busy, frusturated, entertained, and loved. Without him in my daily routine, i dont think this deployment would have went the same way.
I cannot wait to share this one of a kind love with Zack, so that he too can experience the joy it is to be a parent. Chase is such a blessing in so many ways, i cannot begin to describe.
My family and friends will soon meet Chase when i come home to GA for a couple months, and i am so excited to share him with them. Chase brings such a joy to my heart with just one smile. I can honestly say that if nothing else happens in life, i will be content with the love of my husband, and the love of my new son. I thank God everyday for sending me such a great family. I could not have made it to where i am today with out his help. Zack alone has made me a better person, and with our new addition i feel as though he has helped us get to where we are now.
I love you Chase, and i Love and miss you so much Zack!! Cant wait til R&R where you will finally get to meet our handsome baby boy!
I cannot wait to share this one of a kind love with Zack, so that he too can experience the joy it is to be a parent. Chase is such a blessing in so many ways, i cannot begin to describe.
My family and friends will soon meet Chase when i come home to GA for a couple months, and i am so excited to share him with them. Chase brings such a joy to my heart with just one smile. I can honestly say that if nothing else happens in life, i will be content with the love of my husband, and the love of my new son. I thank God everyday for sending me such a great family. I could not have made it to where i am today with out his help. Zack alone has made me a better person, and with our new addition i feel as though he has helped us get to where we are now.
I love you Chase, and i Love and miss you so much Zack!! Cant wait til R&R where you will finally get to meet our handsome baby boy!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Being a New Mommy
Once Zack comes home, it will feel whole, right now i feel like something is missing, and i know its him. I also know he feels the same way. Having my mom here to help is awesome, but there's still something about having the other person who helped make this little being there, all the more real.
Chase is such a blessing. He is SUCH a good baby! It took Zack and I over 2 years to conceive, and we have been severely blessed ever since. Chase is wonderful.
I don't know how to describe how i feel for him. I love him so much. Just watching him sleep makes me want to cry sometimes. To think that God decided to give me such a good baby, is beyond me.
Thanks to all of your thoughts and prayers, he is finally here with us, and what a blessing he is!
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About Me
- mrsbmcgraw
- I am happily married to the love of my life ( Zack ), and have the cutest son on the block ( Chase )! ARMY WIFE HOOAH! College Grad, aspiring Cook, and all around cool person! haha! I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for, and a family that is bar none!